This is yet another random post. It’s just a rant from the deepest shadows of my heart, crying out for another soul. A simple 'hello, how are you' would suffice. It’s definitely not easy to pen down the thoughts within me, nor am I feeling any desire to make this post even an itsy bit more interesting. Like I said, just a rant from a normal teenager (opps, I'm 20) who desperately wants something to happen … be it good or bad.
Here’s a boy who wants nothing more than for another person to catch the flint in my eyes, to acknowledge me with smiles … or just a simple pat on the back. It feels tough to be alone. Having no one to welcome me into the 21 club. I’m making do of what I have, to make myself some happy moments, because no one is around to make it happen for me. In fact, it’s so depressing that I’ve already thought of a gift for myself. Something that I’ve always wanted. You might have it, or you might know another 100 more people that already have it, but that doesn’t make it any less special to me. I once told a friend that I’m trying to cling on to my last bit of childhood. From the day I was born until now, every single toy I’ve ever had were bought by me. PS, PS2, PSP and hand phones. Here’s another 2 more that I hope I’ll be able to add on by the end of this year. After all, all work and no fun is … simply not my way of life.
Portable piano (RM 2000++) ...
... and Gundam Unicorn (RM 224)
Despite the recent loneliness, I guess I'm actually pretty lucky compared to some of them out there. I don’t feel like telling those sad private stories from my workplace. Bottom line is, I’m lucky to have people behind me, supporting and leaning against me (though sometimes really not that obvious). I'm just being a normal human being here, cause ranting occasionally is what we do. Just that i haven't found anyone recently that I could rant to. Heck, I couldn't even find any human being to talk to. So, don't hesitate to ... talk to me. I don't bite! Just need another soul to listen to what i have to say and not continue on explosively about how nice their life overseas are currently. That just makes my heart ache and my hands itch for a human touch. It's not easy living with no aim. Not easy at all ...